Hemlock.

I found my plan.

Today, I'm probably getting my rejection letter from  Gardner. That's a reality. I'm going to keep applying for jobs... that's I'm not going to get. That's a reality.

So this summer I'm going to get some guts. And take a trip to Concord, Emerson wrote about the Hemlock that grew by the river. I just found out that it causes paralysis, that eventually results in asphyxiation.

So, vampires, I'll let you know!